togetherness in a small yard!

hi ... anybody here?
rain pours down outside the window
lets dance in the rain!!! hahaha

I just remember when we are junior, in smp5
the independence day, do u all remember ?
it was rainy day, but we all still celebrate!
we can feel the happiness in a small yard, small school...
though its small, but full of togetherness and happiness

jobless :p

Kel, Sisca, Des, and Jess are saying hello :)

we're at civics class right now..

Me :(

Realized something today , after what had happened these days .
i found myself was such a fool girl .
i'm the worst among you all ,
i'm the most useless among you all .

things look great for me few weeks ago , when he was still here .
but now , everything changes .
i'm starting to ask , ask about everything .
i'm starting to afraid , afraid of love .
i'm starting to confuse , confuse about him .
what should i do , my girls ?

i really wanted to shout out loud .
how i wish that he could know .
everything that i feel right now .
i know , i'm nobody to him .
nobody !
should have known this before !
too bad , i acted foolishly these and those days .
till now , i still let myself !
stupid me .

p.s birthday is coming , but i feel nothing :(

you are not alone :)

Theres no use looking back or wondering.

wake up you , friend!

maybe you wont be able to walk out of the problems , but at least you have the way to walk through it

its really kinda heartbroken or even the others when seeing you feel blue like that.

please be stronger , be happier my dear ~

dont be so stress anymore, remember that you still have us , BLUEDJEFV :)
no matter what happen , we will get along together~


ps :: sometimes I feel that only bluedjefv could light up my life, make it bcome more colourful , and only bluedjefv is real for me , I am proud of this friendship :))

:((

Dear , 你到底怎么了？
告诉我们嘛 ..
也许我们帮得上忙 ..

We are really worried about you .
Something happened ? Or what ?
i hate seeing you like this !
Now should be the time to enjoy our togetherness as well as we can .
time is getting shorter for us .
You should know that .

forget all of the bad things .
i know it's hard , but you have to .
it is a must .
i know how it feels .
you have to be stronger , dear .
For us .
For our bluedjefv .
we do care for you :)

WE LOVE YOU :)

Heyy Des !

You wrote "agree with vero's opinion" !
whichonewhichone ?
;p

We Are Here For You ♥

August has always been a great month for me .
You know why ;)
Have been wondering what will happen that day !
:))


I feel that one of us is having a problem right now .
And i'm sure you guys feel it too .

My dear , did something happen ?
Share it .
Eventhough we can't be good advisors , but im sure we are good listeners for you .
If it's too hard for you to say , at least let us know that you are fine now .
no matter what , you have to remember , we will always be here for you .

p.s how i wish you were here .

MISS OUR GREAT DAYS .

heyheyhey !
Do you feel the same ? :(

♥ TRUE FRIEND ♥

We sign our cards and letters BFF
You've got a million ways to make me laugh
You're lookin' out for me; you've got my back
It's so good to have you around

You know the secrets I could never tell
And when I'm quiet you break through my shell
Don't feel the need to do a rebel yell
Cause you keep my feet on the ground

You're a true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside
When something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
'Til it's alright again
You're a true friend

You don't get angry when I change the plans
Somehow you're never out of second chances
Won't say "I told you" when I'm wrong again
I'm so lucky that I've found

A true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside
When something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
'Til it's alright again

True friends will go to the ends of the earth
Till they find the thing you need
Friends hang on through the ups and the downs
Cause they've got someone to believe in

A true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside
When something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
No need to pretend
You're a true friend
You're here till the end
Pull me aside
When something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
'Til it's alright again
You're a true friend [3x]

p.s a great song ! I have been listening this song whole day . I keep repeating it
! LOL

I Miss You :(

such a boring holiday !
we couldn't even hang out together :((
suddenly feel really down .
and i need you all right now !

i just could stare on my lappie whole day without doing anything else .
damn bored !
damn sad !

I saw something just now , and it reminded me of him .
hate this .
realizing that he had found himself a new girl , it disturbed me .
do i still care ? NO ! I wont let myself !
But something is obviously disturbing me now .

Birthday is coming ! Would he wish me a very happy birthday ?
>.<
Stop It ! haha .
should have enjoying my life .
Believe that i will be better than before .

p.s This question has been flowing on my mind ! Dream or Reality ? >.<
And Special Thanks To Someone Who Has Brighten Up My Life Recently :)

greatest part of my life ♥

Finally !
i could post something in our blog ! haha :))

My Bdj , do u all know that u are such a miracle for me ?
never tot that i could have sisters like you all .
really miss all of the times that we had together .

We all know that time is getting shorter and shorter for us .
and i can't bear to see us being apart so fast .
seeing clock is ticking so fast , i feel afraid .
afraid that i'm gonna lose you all one day .
and please , dun ever let it happen .

one thing more .
i know , sometimes or even everytime , I was annoying .
nut no matter what , I REALLY LOVE YOU ALL !
feel so blessed having you guys in my life ! :)

p.s. suddenly i miss him a lot :((

GRADUATION ( FRIENDS FOREVER)

and so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
And we would get so excitedand we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
From whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly


ps :: really thumbs up for the lyrics of this song :))
nice isnt it ??
you all must listen to it :p

miss our past time ..

i agree with vero's opinion ..

recently, when i have problems or something that is very unconvinient in my heart ,

i don't know who should i looking for and who should i talking to ..

i just keep it in my heart ..

i think that the problems is lying on me, but i don't know what that makes me become like this ..

i really try to find out why ..

find out what is really happened to all of us ..

sometimes when i was thinking about past, i really feels like wanna crying ..

my heart just seems like so hurt , so hurt ..

when i saw other people looks so happy , i keep thinking ..

do i happy ?

or i just pretend to be happy ?

i seems like trying to give people some 'fake' smile ..

but my heart is crying out loud ..

i'm afraid that people look down on me ,in some way ..

this life is not my choice, why are they trying to question it on me and even dispised me ?

i really don't understand ..

what is my life right now for ..

love this

wow... so good
who makes this? I love this!

where have we been?

why! why!
are you guys forgetting the username or password?
Or perhaps, our brain can't work properly after the exam?
Or, still under pressure? Btw, JEDWARD sings UNDER PRESSURE. i love that song!

So, i just wanna say that, i am , ee .
Well, hm .
I just .. Ee, eee.
Any idea what i'm gonna say?
Drop your comments!


P.S
well, i think i'm slowly loving a seveententh.
being 17 is not as creepy as i thought this far. despite the fact that i'm nearer to God, -death-, being a 17 years old really making me looking forward to catch up with my 20es.. I see 20. It's a 2-TWO-.

Good Bye EXAM!!!

yessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

PURSUE FOR FUTURE

yeah , not yet..
I still frustrating when these kinds of question bugging me..

I don't know which path should I walk in through , I afraid I would walk wrong path one day because of, I really can't find what is my talent actually ?
I find myself is such a stupid human , an useless human ! I really think so..

Sometimes , I asked to myself , why I have to go to school everyday ? exc sunday
is it just one of my daily routine ?
I dont know ,

Honestly , I really DISLIKE science !
I dislike MATH , PHYSICS , CHEMISTRY , BIOLOGY.

I think I already made a wrong decision in the begin ...

but what can I do ?
Regret is NO USE .



all I can do now is START AFRESH !!! I must get used with my decision . I will try my HARD for not let PEOPLE around me disappointed.

please Jesus , give me intelligence and strength to face it!

I believe I can make it BEST :)



because , I WANT BE A SUCCESS HUMAN !!

:D


PS : yeah , I will consider wisely where should I go and what I want to be in my future !

University, shall be our next destination?

Time flies. That's true. Flies fast.
Soon, we'll be in 12th grade. No no no way !!!
I'm not ready for national exam.
But, the thing is,
Have you decided your destination?

Nobody knows
My heart beat hurtly

GONE FOREVER

I woke up, when my mother called me...
so I checked for her condition, her breath ... use my finger to figure it out
but I can't feel her breath
I couldn't believe it...

She was my Grandma.

at the first day of her death...
I cried

second, third, forth,
still played the poker with my relatives, and some of you comes to visit...

the last night and the last day to bury
I was broke down properly

a person who lived with me everyday, She left...She had gone
I still can't get used to it

every time, I open the door... I can't see her, greet her again
I just can tell you,
She is very kind, never scold me...
when She was strong those days,
bought me food every morning till I am get bored of it...

much more, She never rang the bell for us,
the bell for the emergency , my mother putted her room
She never rang it for once...

She didn't like to bother others.
the last night She was still alive,couldn't moved her body out of her bed
She doted my mother cause She didn't want her to be suffered to take care on her


I am so proud for being her granddaughter.
well now I am fined. ;D

FUZZY DIZZY BLUEE

Oh My..
My Head HURTS a lot !!!
My stomach WORSEN it !
I'm DYING . . . DYING . . . DYING . . . DYING . . . . . . . .

Alohaaaaaaaaa

Hey,, I just wanna tell you guys, I GET A FEVER, PIANO FEVER

=)

thanks for accompany me today ~
without you all , today will be my borinqq day ><
pass the holiday alone like stupid person =="
btw , THANKS . MWAHHPPSS ~
hahahh XD

It's me ... Dezz ..

after saw our blog, i've been thinking that i've never post anything in our blog ..
hmmmmm ... so, this time, i'm gonna post something ..

first,
well, i dun understand why that in the post "my post is missing", it has my name on it ?

second,
really feel very happy when spending time with you guys ...
but, just that there's something that i can't tell you all ...
hmmmmm ...
just like that ,,,

by ; dezz

A Cloudy Day...

I hope,,, this afternoon ...
was the last time we met!

NOT SAFETY

DELFI KARTIKAWATI
Don't peep our blog!
you get caught!

MY POST IS MISSING .

WOWW2 ,
whats wrong with you ? des .
Do something troubling you ?
why dont you tell us ?
okay2
I am not good enough in words , but dont keep the burden alone
It makes you become tired .

And all ,
HELP ME FROM THE DEEP OCEAN .

so annoyed...

change is needed, I can't comment on the blog!!!
huft...

I'm Back

Hai, I'm Back !!!
Why this blog is so quiet?

bored boredd boreddd

I have changed the layout again
bcos I feel it does not suit our letters
though I already found it hard
but let it be simple !!!
;D

heartbroken ~

I M I S S Y O U . . . . . .

GOT NOTHING TO DO =)

A tiring holiday ~
I just stay at home and stare at novels .
No mood to study my exam subject,
" C H E M I S T R Y "
yeah ,
I'm just seeking around , and suddenly got nothing to do and post this in our blog ,
Can you guys guess who I am ?
Comments are indeed needed .

Oh , MY STUPID GRAMMAR !

How about ??

Udah ada yang pikir mau ganti title apa? Comment is needed

Change ?

Can I change our blog title ? "We still alive", sounds like people thought we already died

why ? why ? why?

why do simple things can be so complex?
no one can get it,,,
so many things aren't got involve,

I never ask for those, the answers always "LIFE GOES ON" , "LET IT FLOWS" ...
life goes on who doesn't know?

it can't be involved, I try to let it go...
but I live for my dream , not live for letting it go...
why should I let it go?
there is no point in life...

I try to make it simple,
but life isn't as simple as you think...

"don't think too much"
sometimes people have to think much...

I don't want to forward my steps with a question mark
but the adventure is always full of question mark...

I don't want it all
but all happen without reasons...

You've lost it all, it's just no use!
I won't let these words come to me
at least,

GAME ISN'T OVER YET!

Cut! Cut! Cut!

Geez, been waiting too long here. Hair cut is trending in me. Is my hair not short enough?? I think I'm just going to shorten my ponny.
*stomachache*
Nervous ??

With Scissor, or sciscor?( idk how to spell it correctly )
FRS

Cut! Cut! Cut!

Geez, been waiting too long here. Hair cut is trending in me. Is my hair not short enough?? I think I'm just going to shorten my ponny.
*stomachache*
Nervous ??

What the HELL is going on ???!!!

I didn't ask for sorry. I do not deserve that. Why you guys need to write something like that? Now thing gonna be worse.. *sigh*
Peace =.=)v

With peace,
FRS

APOLOGIZE ~

2 years has passed since that day ,
everything seemed to be alright .
Till this few months ,

I am in my XI grade ,
it was a fault to be in the same class with my own friends .
Yeaahh ,
it all began with those questions .
And I am the one who caused that .

I didnt mean to compare both ,
but sometimes I just cant really feel some cares about bluedjefv exists .
and I am so sorry to feel about that ..


K e L ♫

2nd anniversary...

yesterday, ...
2nd anniversary
march 25th, 2010


Looking back, that was not a good beginning for us, bluedjefv .
hmmmm..

we supposed that it would be a big big day for bluedjefv .
we gathered at vian's house, and so we were so panic because we had to fetch Vero , not in that case we were worried about, we had just felt very inconvenient without car to bring us to go to anywhere ...

BUT, we got surprised from Edwin, =0
1. He lied us that He was going to SG on that day, but actually He didn't, so at last he could bring us to hang out by car.
2. Suddenly, we found out Edwin in the living room when we were going out from Vian's room...
3. At the same time, we also saw a cake which was an anniversary cake.

and Jes said to Kel: She couldn't follow us by Edwin's car. So we had waited for her bf to fetch her
then we just got in car
so, we directly went to Vero's house to fetch her as well =)

so we went ahead to pizza hut but it was too crowded then we changed our mind to go to Airways cafe ...

WE SOLVED OUR LUNCH ON THERE =D

The ridiculous thing...

We stayed for hours, at the same time we waited Sisca for reunion
at the first time, honestly we felt annoyed
but after Vero had explained for us about the reasons, so we all didn't mind at all to wait

then we actually could go to Vero's house straightly...
But we had to wait Sisca for fetching Jes because she was not allowed to get in any men's cars
even though we were all girls in, besides Edwin
YEAH , that's why we had to wait Sisca till she was arrived

FINALLY SHE ARRIVED...
and we were not purposed to shut the car's windows without saying HI
Because at that time, we felt annoyed about it...
not because waiting for, just felt very ridiculous on Jes (YES INDEED)
so we really didn't purpose it to balance our moods

SORRY SISCA,
We did it, but we really didn't mean so

Then we went to Vero's house to celebrate our anniversary =)
We opened the cake, put the candles, lighted it,
We started to sing the birthday song!
BLA BLA BLA...
after eating the cake, we went to Vero's room and chit-chat ...
but we felt there was silently from someone
actually we didn't know how to do ,something like that...
we had to cover the cold circumstances as well so we just kept talking

16.30 : jes' daddy came to fetch her.
17.00 : Sisca had gone to piano's class
...

We felt very grateful to Edwin because of his surprises...

SO we were leaving Vero's house when Edwin came to fetch us...
We went to PIZZA HUT !
..................................................................................................................................

by : Evi , J N , Salvia =)

Beautiful Mess

I came late yesterday, so sorry.

And maybe it's true that every time we have a party or something we do together, someone from djefv always mess it up! Yeah, it always us.

I can't lie that some words from you really hurt me a lot. And I'm still thinking about that all the time. You guys know what? I've been writing and deleting posts here. But this one, I won't delete it.

To be true, when I woke up yesterday, I'm asking myself should I really join your anniversary? I said your because I don't feel it like mine. I'm not belonging to you (bluedjefv). At least, not anymore after some of you said something about us (djefv). Did you guys ask me why I'm late? Nope. Did you guys ask for reason? Nope. Did you guys say hi when we met @ airways? Nope, you guys closed the window.

I do not deserve that for being so late. But why did you keep calling me and asking me where I am but when I was there I feel like I'm nothing only a property for you. Don't lie, you just want bluedjefv completes.

Always together? Is that friendship for you? I know we should cherish our time together as much as we can. But it doesn't mean when we are apart, we are not friends anymore. You guys still my best friends.

I don't understand the real meaning of cherish our time by the way, but I guess it doesn't mean we have to hang out together, waste money, sort of those things.

And one more, djefv would never break up.

With Love,

FRS

My D J E F V

To Vero : Thanks for the chocolate! Fine Champagne Cognac Beb!!!

And Desni, your dvd still with me, I'll return it soon. Great movie right ?

But Jess, probably wanna watch it too,

Evi, actually I don't know what to say, just, keep working girl!! It will end soon =)

With Love,

FRS

4 days more, and our 2nd anniversary is coming ..

OUR BEGINNING :
It happened in our junior high, when we were still strange to each other .
Some of us came from different primary school ,
and that's how the story begin .

that day, we first met on July 17th, 2005.
the beginning of our first term , that tied us together .
The name of "BLUEDJEFV" is actually consists of " bluespirit " and " djefv " ~