jobless :p

Kel, Sisca, Des, and Jess are saying hello :)

we're at civics class right now..

Me :(

Realized something today , after what had happened these days .
i found myself was such a fool girl .
i'm the worst among you all ,
i'm the most useless among you all .

things look great for me few weeks ago , when he was still here .
but now , everything changes .
i'm starting to ask , ask about everything .
i'm starting to afraid , afraid of love .
i'm starting to confuse , confuse about him .
what should i do , my girls ?

i really wanted to shout out loud .
how i wish that he could know .
everything that i feel right now .
i know , i'm nobody to him .
nobody !
should have known this before !
too bad , i acted foolishly these and those days .
till now , i still let myself !
stupid me .

p.s birthday is coming , but i feel nothing :(

you are not alone :)

Theres no use looking back or wondering.

wake up you , friend!

maybe you wont be able to walk out of the problems , but at least you have the way to walk through it

its really kinda heartbroken or even the others when seeing you feel blue like that.

please be stronger , be happier my dear ~

dont be so stress anymore, remember that you still have us , BLUEDJEFV :)
no matter what happen , we will get along together~


ps :: sometimes I feel that only bluedjefv could light up my life, make it bcome more colourful , and only bluedjefv is real for me , I am proud of this friendship :))

:((

Dear , 你到底怎么了？
告诉我们嘛 ..
也许我们帮得上忙 ..

We are really worried about you .
Something happened ? Or what ?
i hate seeing you like this !
Now should be the time to enjoy our togetherness as well as we can .
time is getting shorter for us .
You should know that .

forget all of the bad things .
i know it's hard , but you have to .
it is a must .
i know how it feels .
you have to be stronger , dear .
For us .
For our bluedjefv .
we do care for you :)

WE LOVE YOU :)

Heyy Des !

You wrote "agree with vero's opinion" !
whichonewhichone ?
;p

We Are Here For You ♥

August has always been a great month for me .
You know why ;)
Have been wondering what will happen that day !
:))


I feel that one of us is having a problem right now .
And i'm sure you guys feel it too .

My dear , did something happen ?
Share it .
Eventhough we can't be good advisors , but im sure we are good listeners for you .
If it's too hard for you to say , at least let us know that you are fine now .
no matter what , you have to remember , we will always be here for you .

p.s how i wish you were here .

MISS OUR GREAT DAYS .

heyheyhey !
Do you feel the same ? :(

♥ TRUE FRIEND ♥

We sign our cards and letters BFF
You've got a million ways to make me laugh
You're lookin' out for me; you've got my back
It's so good to have you around

You know the secrets I could never tell
And when I'm quiet you break through my shell
Don't feel the need to do a rebel yell
Cause you keep my feet on the ground

You're a true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside
When something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
'Til it's alright again
You're a true friend

You don't get angry when I change the plans
Somehow you're never out of second chances
Won't say "I told you" when I'm wrong again
I'm so lucky that I've found

A true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside
When something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
'Til it's alright again

True friends will go to the ends of the earth
Till they find the thing you need
Friends hang on through the ups and the downs
Cause they've got someone to believe in

A true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside
When something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
No need to pretend
You're a true friend
You're here till the end
Pull me aside
When something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
'Til it's alright again
You're a true friend [3x]

p.s a great song ! I have been listening this song whole day . I keep repeating it
! LOL

I Miss You :(

such a boring holiday !
we couldn't even hang out together :((
suddenly feel really down .
and i need you all right now !

i just could stare on my lappie whole day without doing anything else .
damn bored !
damn sad !

I saw something just now , and it reminded me of him .
hate this .
realizing that he had found himself a new girl , it disturbed me .
do i still care ? NO ! I wont let myself !
But something is obviously disturbing me now .

Birthday is coming ! Would he wish me a very happy birthday ?
>.<
Stop It ! haha .
should have enjoying my life .
Believe that i will be better than before .

p.s This question has been flowing on my mind ! Dream or Reality ? >.<
And Special Thanks To Someone Who Has Brighten Up My Life Recently :)

greatest part of my life ♥

Finally !
i could post something in our blog ! haha :))

My Bdj , do u all know that u are such a miracle for me ?
never tot that i could have sisters like you all .
really miss all of the times that we had together .

We all know that time is getting shorter and shorter for us .
and i can't bear to see us being apart so fast .
seeing clock is ticking so fast , i feel afraid .
afraid that i'm gonna lose you all one day .
and please , dun ever let it happen .

one thing more .
i know , sometimes or even everytime , I was annoying .
nut no matter what , I REALLY LOVE YOU ALL !
feel so blessed having you guys in my life ! :)

p.s. suddenly i miss him a lot :((

GRADUATION ( FRIENDS FOREVER)

and so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
And we would get so excitedand we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
From whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly


ps :: really thumbs up for the lyrics of this song :))
nice isnt it ??
you all must listen to it :p

miss our past time ..

i agree with vero's opinion ..

recently, when i have problems or something that is very unconvinient in my heart ,

i don't know who should i looking for and who should i talking to ..

i just keep it in my heart ..

i think that the problems is lying on me, but i don't know what that makes me become like this ..

i really try to find out why ..

find out what is really happened to all of us ..

sometimes when i was thinking about past, i really feels like wanna crying ..

my heart just seems like so hurt , so hurt ..

when i saw other people looks so happy , i keep thinking ..

do i happy ?

or i just pretend to be happy ?

i seems like trying to give people some 'fake' smile ..

but my heart is crying out loud ..

i'm afraid that people look down on me ,in some way ..

this life is not my choice, why are they trying to question it on me and even dispised me ?

i really don't understand ..

what is my life right now for ..