reply : to vian :)

please read it with calm mind, no emotional needed.

Vian,
I really appreciate how you speak your mind.
as you know, I always treat you as my bestfriend.
maybe it's our fault from the beginning, I'm sorry.
but, we stop contacting each other right ?
I won't make that decision if I had never treated you as my bestfriend.

And I remember that day, when you said you're okay with it, even though I know you're not.
I didn't even have that thought of getting back with him that time.
Then I saw you're loved by Ko Har & I thought everything is okay now.
sometimes, this kind of things are out of prediction.

like you always say "nobody know how you feel until they were in your shoes ?"
maybe I don't know how you feel, but I always try to.
people who knew me, know how hard I've been struggle with this decision.
I always make decision by thinking "what would vian's feel ?"
so, what if everyone know how you feel ? Does anybody know how I feel ?
Many years has passed, but all I can feel is selfishness.
you're selfish, even me.

Bluedjefv never asked about you ? did they ask about me ?
Bukan karena mereka ga peduli atau memojokkanmu, but this is not a problem that they should interfere right ?
gimana kalo yg satu bela kamu, dan yang lain bela aku ??
apa bikin grup baru aja Blue spirit sma Djefv lagi ? ga usah temenan lagi, debat aja sampai salah satu menyerah. Haha
I don't think it's either a good choice. I believe this is the best they can do.
saying like this didn't mean to make you feel bad.
and then you said friendship is much more important than him.
BUT, why ? why you always the one who act and stop talking to me vian ?
even Ko Har dislikes me, that's make all of us feel not right at all.
both of you are a little bit childish, I'm sorry but it's a fact !

do you think I like him doing whatever he has done to you did it to me ? neither do I.
you want everybody know how you feel, you should try to know how we feel too.
You acting this way, it's not good for him and both of us.
Yes, I know the wound you feel is like falling at the same place and hurt the same wound over again.
just give each other time, I know it's hard for you. let face it together.
please let's make everything solve this time.
I don't want a friendship ruins over something like this.

all of us never stop you from bringing your boyfie with us, it's a pleasure to hang out together, know each other.
How you guys treat each other, I believe being a bestfriend always want to see how a guy could treat our bestfriend.
are you really loved by him, feel happy. It's the view that all of us want to see.
did I ever make you feel awkward ? I always watch every moves when there were three of us hanging out.
I treat every guys fairly, not just to him but the other guys too.

I'm sorry, kalau ada kata-kata yang menusuk, I'm a straightforward person. you know that. :)

let's try to be understanding, four of us.
solve this together and stay as friend forever :)

I should be the one who asking "are we still the way we were,vian?"